welp i’ve done it again. ate too much and scratched myself, right next to the almost healed mark too. i dunno how i’m gonna lie my way out of this one tomorrow. hopefully it won’t show up too much. my habits are getting more unhealthy and i want to eat less and less. every time i think “fuck this, i’m eating” and give in, i end up feeling like shit after and looking fatter than ever. i just want thinner legs and a flat stomach. now i have to go to breakfast with thomas tomorrow, and i don’t want to because that means i’ll be spending two meals with him aka i’ll have to eat two whole meals tomorrow. i ate too much today, i only need one meal tomorrow, if that. how am i going to get myself out of this mess?
i can’t believe that after one day of eating more than one meal (or less) i can already see the fat on my stomach again.